Having A lot to Say

A few years ago I stepped way out of my comfort zone and joined a bible study via Zoom hosted by a girl I was following on Instagram who was being a disciple for Jesus. I met amazing girls from around the country who were trying to find comfort and grow in the faith walk as well.

There was one night during that bible study, someone said something to me that has stuck with me. I ended up sharing how I have social anxiety, that I feel like what I have to say in public situations isn't important, I'm worried I'll sound stupid or I'll mess up what I'm trying to say and will just sound straight up stupid. One girl stopped me and said that the devil is trying to hush me up. He knows I have a lot to say to benefit the kingdom of God. Hmm. That is interesting. How I have felt about not being myself and not saying what I feel I need to has been an issue for me for quite sometime. Since that bible study, I have grown in my faith tremendously, but have still had those issues. I'm currently in a really hard, dark season where I know the devil is trying to knock me out by the things I feel, think and random things that pop into my head.

I've seen a handful of the same saying here recently on social media, "the devil wouldn't be attacking you so hard if there wasn't something of value inside of you. Thieves don't break into empty homes." The devil comes to kill, steal, and destroy (John 10:10.) He's trying to kill the plan God has set for me, he's trying to steal all the worth I feel in myself, and he's trying to destroy the very essence of who God created me to be. And friend, he's most certainly going to do the same to you.

The hard times you are going through and are trying to overcome, is the devils attempt to knock you off your feet, to throw you off course. He sees the wonderful goodness the Lord has put in you and the purposeful life the Lord has given you. You have been anointed by the Almighty God to do great works in this world to benefit His glorious kingdom. I know, friend. It's so hard to fight the devil. He's using everything he has on you but you have already won the battle through Jesus' anointing on your life and through His presence in you heart.

Lord, I pray for the friend who is fighting off the devil right now. I pray they feel Your presence in their situation and that they continue to feel You throughout life, to continue to give them the strength they know they don't have. It is through you, Lord, that we have the spontaneous strength, knowledge, wisdom, to keep going. I praise You for what you have helped me overcome, what you are helping me overcome, and what you will help me overcome. I praise you for the fact that You have already won the battle for me and for others who are struggling. Please give them peace and rest knowing that You are there to fight along side them, that they are not alone and never will be as long as they have faith in You. I love you, Lord, amen.